Wednesday, August 23, 2006
那个关于我想要的故事
"暧昧"，这个到底是这样的东西？它为何会让人受委屈？
我觉得我应该停止看那些偶像剧，因为他们让我产生幻想症。唉。。。故事里的王子跟公主的天长地久究竟是真的，还是虚幻而已？
他们说“人生如戏，戏如人生”。若是这样，那我们的人生也如一场童话故事吗？可能我在寻找的也是那种轰轰烈烈的爱情，可是我也知道，梦一醒又是残酷的事实。我一厢情愿想得到的也是一种不可能。我真正疲倦时我会告诉我自己，也如歌词一样“何时该前进，何时该放弃”。
终觉得这个言语更能表达我心里想说的。也让我更深了解我自己。虽然写作起来没比以前容易，但是这也给我足够时间思考。放心，我没事。因为坚强也已经成为我生命中的一部分，而等待也成为不可缺少的。
这真的好困难哦！
12:23 AM
Friday, August 18, 2006
the one with my first day as a receptionist
I'm sitting here happily, waiting for 2530 to start, sipping my milk and munching on some goodies. It's an okay day at work. Those who think that the job of a receptionist is very easy should go knock their heads on the wall. I learnt many things today. Like the art of answering calls, differentiating between the different expats accents, the procedure of sending local couriers and overseas packages, and the art of communication. Time did not pass very quickly nor did it crawl like a turtle. But I'm sure of one thing... I can't do it for the rest of my life.
It's quite an easy job once you get the hang of it and get an insight of the company. But as compare this with running in the hot sun with a camera, I'll take the latter anytime.
What would you do with your entire life? Earn money? Gain fame? Gain glory? Or be satisfied with what you have and enjoy what you do?
10:01 PM
Thursday, August 17, 2006
the one on enjoying life
Life after FYP does not seem to fit me at all. I've been looking for work and by God's grace, may be working at Comex with my brother. I know it's supposed to be a time of rest for me, but I just can't get to rest. For starters, I can't get to sleep. I spend more time trying to sleep as compared to the time I was doing FYP, but ends up waking up at the usual time to go to school. I can't even enjoy afternoon naps because I'll be kicking my blankie in frustration when I can't get to sleep.
If only everyday can be like today. Go out with friends. Go cycling happily. Enjoy life. If only.
My brother and his friend are stuck in the rooms/escapers game.. Still trying to get out of the green one. I'm having the time of my life laughing at them. Man, life is good.
12:23 AM
Saturday, August 12, 2006
the one on direction
It's that kind of loss you feel when something you've held onto for a long time is gone. I feel like a fly without a head suddenly. But it feels good.
It's that load that's off my shoulders. It's the thought that I can finally sleep in peace.
But it's also the thought that everything we've worked for is over. It's the thought that Produzione will be going our own seperate ways now. It's the thought that it's really really over.
It really is over. And I have to seek out my direction once more.
"I come before You today.
And there's just one thing that I want to say
THANK YOU LORD
THANK YOU LORD"
11:51 AM
Monday, August 07, 2006
the one on thanksgivings
I have no idea what I'm doing here at this hour. I should be in bed now, given that I had a long and eventful Sunday, travelling from Tampines to Woodlands and back to Tampines again, given that I have just finished finalising the documents for FYP submission tomorrow, rendering out the final video and just feel totally exhausted.
I just want to give thanks. God has been wonderful in these 5 months. I would not know what I would be without Him in my life. There's just buckets of gratitude in me that just seem to overflow from within me right now.
I'm grateful for my supervisor.
I'm grateful for my project members.
I'm grateful for dear friends like Rey and TY.
I'm grateful for the sisters I've found in Jerelyn and Michelle.
I'm grateful for the unique style of encouragement I've gotten from Jeremy.
I'm grateful for every experience I've had in these 5 months.
It's hard to look back and think that everything is coming to an end soon.
I'm so grateful for God's Hand working in my life. It's been done. It is accomplished. It's a job well done and I'm grateful.
Thank You Jesus.
2:40 AM